Dear Life,

Nothing absolutely significant or out of this world has happened to me lately, but life is good. Sure, there’s time to time when I let the little things get me down, but I think I’ve learned how to conquer that insecurity as best as I can. Right now, I’m content. I’m happy with who I am, what I’m doing, and who I want to be.

Thank you for that.

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“We’re all a little weird, and when we find those people who’s weirdness is compatible with outs we join up with them and fall into a mutually satisfying weirdness and call them our bestfriends”

i just wanted to say thanks.


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25 things

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

1. when i first say this thing going around i thought ‘ew i would never do this’. then i started reading everyone’s 25, and i felt selfish for not sharing things about me 

2. i wear my jesus bracelet not as a fashion/trend statement,  but because i am proud and love to be a catholic 

3. disneyland will NEVER be boring to me. there is no such thing as “too much disneyland” in my eyes 

4. i secretly dread small talk. only because i lack the ability to perform legit small talk

5. i never want to live any other place but california. norcal, socal it doesnt matter as long as its still california 

6. law and order svu episodes are my favorite. when theres a marathon on USA im glued to the tv

7.  i dont understand boys and their obsession with ‘the godfather’

8. I hate HATE HATE the word c*nt

9. i get super emotional during movies. happy, sad, angry. it doesnt matter. and music usually plays a large part 

10. i played piano for 10 years. and after 2 years of not playing, i miss it. 

11. i HATE sharing hugs. haha hugs are free, i shouldnt have to share :]

12. i dont mind driving, but honestly i hate it. haha make sense? 

13. i wish i had written/come up with the concept for JUST DANCE BY LADY GAGA

14. my mind is always running at 100 mph. so if i say something outloud that seems   hella random, trust me, it makes sense in my head :]

15. i wish i wasn’t flaky and followed through with my 365. i’ll probably start it up again

16. i can only hope my brother enjoys his teen years as much as i did :[ i worry about his happiness and his life in general every minute of the day 

17. im not gonna lie, i was a bossy little bitch when i was younger :]

18. i dont do well with change, actually its more like i refuse to accept it

19. i have music ADD. its a rarity for me to actually listen to a full song in the car, the  buttons on my radio are all, worn out

20. i have sensitive skin, i get a random rash everywhere i go. usually a large red area on my arm/hands. DONT FREAKOUT! it goes away in about 20 mins if i leave it alone

21. i admit to facebook stalking. and to spending too much time on facebook

22. i want a tatoo, but im too chicken. and i want it somewhere thats not too public, i know it defeats the purpose, but i want to be able to hide it. 

23. i have the worst luck with camera and phones. ive gone through a different phone each year since freshman year of highschool. and ive had 5 cameras since freshman year

24. i am HORRIBLE with time management. i am late EVERYWHERE. im sorry :[

25. if there is one thing i do know, i know i am blessed :] 

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a. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search (
b. Using ONLY the first page, pick an image.
c. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into Mosaic Maker. Change rows to 3 and columns to 3 (
d. Save the image and post it 

The Questions:
1. What is your first name?
2. What is your favorite color?
3. What is your favorite food?
4. Favorite drink?
5. Dream vacation?
6. Favorite hobby?
7. What you want to be when you grow up?
8. What do you love most in life?
9. One word to describe you?



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ramble. ramble

so, i basically heard alot of relationship ‘problems’ today.
and i thought this might help 🙂
but who am i to be giving advice right?
ha think in terms of ANY relationship (friendships count too!). 


Dont think in terms of forever.

Think of now, and forever will take care of itself

Grow together, constantly.

Expect to invest a great deal of time and energy in your relationship.
Lasting relationships dont just happen,
they are created.

Recognize that all relationships cannot be forever.
Recognize their temporary quality,
but continue to act as if they are permanent.

respect the other persons relationships apart from you.
if they are important to the one you care about,
they should be important to you.

never idealize others
they will never live up to your expectations.

 take your time. 

remove price tags from people. 
everyone has worth, the excitement lies in the discovery of their value. 

dont be afraid of giving
you can never give too much, if youre giving willingly

dont feel as if youre required to spend every waking hour with those u love
move aside from time to time ,allow them a separate space too.

never force anyone to do anything for you in the name of love

dont overanalyze your relationships

realize that you always have choices
its up to you.

remember that a relationship is pooling of resources.
it means that with each relationship you are not only giving,
but you are becoming more.

dont allow relationships to burden your heart
rather use it to become more aware and sensitive.

dont smother each other
no one can grow in the shade

dont lose touch with the craziness in you.
this, with a large dose of caring
will assure that your relationship will never be boring 

dont hold on to anger
they steal your energy and keep you from love

there are times when you want to give up on a relationship
but never give up on relating.

you dont learn anything from hearing yourself talk.

 expect what is reasonable,
not what is perfect 

write down all the reasons why you love each person you relate with.
then, when the going gets tough,
take the list out and reread it. it solves problems quickly 

after an argument is over, forget it. 
dont become involved in pettiness, ego, and childish antics.
those will only serve to degrade your relationship.

learn to bend. its better than breaking 

since love can be created, theres no reason to be loveless

even though u are only half of a relationship, 
you must remain a whole person, apart from the relationship.

remember that moral and spiritual values dont restrict,
they protect 

dont fall in love with love, 
you’ll die with its complexities.

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if you expect nothing from somebody,
they can never disappoint you. 
you are never disappointed .

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Which type are you?

Ms. Gold-Digger

a. You have some one to manage your money.
b. She always looks good.
c. She makes your other friends jealous.
d. She makes you look good.

a. When you get broke she’ll be gone and take what you have left.
b. She makes sure she has a child by you to sue you for child support.
c. Once your friend comes up she’ll be on his arm the next day.

2. Ms. Freak (secret lover)

a. She knows all the right positions.
b. She’ll try everything more than once.
c. You’re never unsatisfied.
d. She’ll do all the things your girl won’t do.
e. She doesn’t mind being your freak, as long as she catches one too.

a. Eventually, because she’s a female, she’ll end up catching feelings.
b. She starts to act like she’s your “main”.
c. She fucks your friend and acts like you are wrong for telling her that she’s a freak.
d. Eventually her shit gets old. And you need a replacement.

3. Ms. Independent

a. You don’t have to worry about buying her anything. She’s got it.
b. She’s intelligent, sassy, confident and determined.
c. She’s great for (business) conversation.
d. She keeps it real and has goals.
e. She knows how to please a man.

a. She will continuously let you know, that she can handle it on her own.
b. She will eventually say fuck you and get a dildo.
c. She will consider you another one her play toys, or goals.

4. Ms. Dyme

a. She’s top of the line.
b. She stays looking like a fantasy.
c. She has the body of a goddess with the face to match.
d. She considers herself a “model”
e. Gets you hard whenever you see her.
f. All the girls envy her, but she doesn’t care.

a. She’s superficial. She cares only about her looks.
b. She honestly lacks confidence and will annoy you about the way she looks.
c. She’s probably dumb as hell and if she’s not her personality is dry.
d. You have to constantly keep your game up because every guy is gonna try to get with her.

5. Ms. Tomboy

a. She’s cool and laid back.
b. She’ll be willing to play rough with you.
c. Of course, she loves sports.
d. Her body is athletically divine.
e. She’s easy to talk to and fun to be around.
f. She’s a diamond in the rough.

a. She’ll remind you too much of your best guy friend.
b. She might not want to change her appearance.
c. She might actually beat you in basketball, football and track.

6. Ms. Ghetto

a. She’s not afraid of any other female or male. She will fight to keep you.
b. She’s down for you. She’ll be there to bail you out of jail.
c. She always stays fresh.
d. She can cook up a storm. She can make the best out of a bad situation.
e. She keeps it real and keeps you satisfied.

a. She doesn’t know how to act in public.
b. Your mama can’t stand her.
c. You get into with her every other second.
d. She’s willing to fight another girl looking at you or her PERIOD.
e. Her weave colors are distracting and her vocabulary is minimal.

7. Ms. Good Girl

a. She’s always there for you.
b. She’s intelligent, classy, kind, sweet and cool.
c. Your mother loves her.
d. You can see yourself falling in love with her.
e. You are her first everything.
f. She makes you feel like a man.

a. She’s an A or B situation either:
A. You’re not going get any until you are married or
B. She said she’s never done – she said she’s never tried – she’s sitting there telling a mother fucking lie.

8. Ms. Main

a. She is the one you respect.
b. She probably may know about the others but might not care.
c. She has all the qualities you want in a female.
d. You’ve been with her forever.

a. She starts getting very suspicious and calls you every moment.
b. She will devise a plan to catch you in your act and then kick your ass

9. Ms. Psycho

a. She’s fun and spontaneous.
b. She’s down to earth.
c. She loves you unconditionally.
d. Everything about her is too good to be true. So everyone loves her.
e. She makes you feel loved.

a. Don’t ever break up with her. She will stalk your ass.
b. She keeps pictures of you everywhere and knows everything about you.
c. She can manipulate the hell out of you.
d. She will consider herself your wifey even if she may just be that chick on the side.
e. Fucking with her can make your life a living hell.

10. Ms. I have a Man

a. She may have a man but she’ll mess with you anyway.
b. She looks good.
c. You have an intense night of passion with her.

a. She’ll always come crying to you about the problems with her man.
b. She’ll get you caught up and then leave you anyway for her man.
c. If you piss her off she’ll get her man to come beat your ass.
d. She’ll unofficially make you her man once she gets pissed off at her real man.

11. Ms. Tease

a. She’s tempting and a nice piece of eye candy.
b. She’s intelligent, athletic, respectable and SEXXXXXXY.
c. She knows how to turn you on without touching you.
d. Everything she does is just so sensual.
e. She can bring you to that point and make you wait to get it.
f. Every time you see her you catch a mini orgasm.
g. Every guy wants her because she’s so mysterious and that makes you want to get her first.

a. NO matter what you think or do you never get it.
b. She probably has a long distance boyfriend somewhere that you will never know about.
c. She gets you hard and leaves you like that. (Unbearable)


a. She is not sexy, fine, or a dyme she is Beautiful and therefore encompasses all of these descriptions.
b. She is intelligent, sassy, funny, outgoing, determined, strong and classy.
c. She can cook or at least order a meal that is just like your mother’s.
d. Her personality is just as beautiful as her body.
e. She believes in God and follows his virtues.
f. She knows that a relationship requires a 200% quota yet she gives her man an extra 10%.
g. She can please her man in anyway. Mentally, Spiritually, and Sexually.
h. She makes you recognize your full potential as a man and completes you.
i. She’s always there for, no matter what your dreams are.
j. She’s not afraid to tell you the truth and set you straight.
k. You can talk to her and confide in her, she’s your best friend.
l. You love being around her more than your boys.
m. You can share your most intimate moments with her without sex.
n. You can have a bad argument with her and have the BEST Mind Numbing and passionate lovemaking fest ever.
o. She’s always willing to find a way to work out your problems and will often take most of your shit. But she’s also intelligent enough to leave.
p. She’s nothing like any other girl you’ve met. She’s your woman.

a. You’ve probably met her, or had her in your life but got too consumed with all the other types that you let her go.
b. You don’t believe that she exists. So you stick with other types of girls that don’t satisfy you or make you happy.

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Grains of Sand

Relationships, of all kinds, are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled on to the floor . A relationship act in the same way. if held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.

So, treat the relationships you value like grains of sand. let them stand on their own, with little disturbance. And in return you’ll have a heart full of love or a hand full of sand . 

sand heart

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AND SO IT BEGINS. threesixtyfive


this shall inclued photos of me taken by ME or by whoever is there to lend a helping hand OR photos taken by ME of other people/things. I’m not out to sit and do a self portrait everyday. This is more to document my year day by day. As it is, sometimes I’m so busy taking pictures for people I rally dont ever get to be in them! 😦 Its would be nice to have someone help me out for a change 🙂 

Although not every picture will be OF me, it will relate to me in some way. The idea is to get one a day for a whole year 🙂

lets hope i can make it through the year. KEEP YOURE FINGERS CROSSED!


outtakes for this shoot on my flickrr 

thankyou ELAINE! for taking the picturess


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Live By This…

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.


People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway.
– Mother Teresa

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